i have long been deeply committed to creating a revolutionary transformation in the country of my birth, but after having realized that my lack of personal development prevented me from living my politics, i began to understand why political transformation is meaningless without personal transformation. following this, i began to understand that i am far less important than i'd like to think i am, and that much of the mistakes i've made have resulted from attempts on my behalf to shape the world to satisfy my wants. i'd like to stop doing that and begin living an ethics of love and community. in order to do that, i must learn how.